Separation anxiety?

I just have to get this off my chest. I can't believe I am so in the minority about leaving my 13 month old behind while I go on a vacation. Morgan.. sure.. she's old enough. Not that anyone would be available to watch Maya but I just couldn't leave her at her age. I am with her 24 hours a day and then BAM.. see ya in 4 days? Don't you think the kid would wonder what happened to me? Wow. Maybe it's me who is suffering from separation anxiety.. but I need to wait a while for something like that. And yes.. I am a weepy mom who has a hard time with her children getting bigger so quickly. I can GUARANTEE I will cry when Morgan goes to Kindergarten next year. I know that I will love it in the end and I know that it is so good for my little social butterfly, but i am her MOTHER and I can cry if I want to. I plan to cry for Maya too. I shed a few tears on her first birthday. I don't think there is anything wrong with it. Enough said. I feel better.

Travel Stinks

I have decided that being married to a man who has to travel for work as often as every other week stinks. What good is the best man in the world if he isn't home?? How to military wives do it? I thought that when I married a computer guy i was pretty safe from travel but no way Jose. When Maya was about 6 weeks old Nathan went on a business trip for 4 days. It was possibly the longest 4 days of my life. My incision got infected and I barely left the house. I think I was gone twice. I braved the park once and got chinese food the other time. mmmm.. that sounds good... I guess I have decided what's for dinner LOL.

I'm feeling pretty good right now. I have gone from being extremely nervous about being pregnant to feeling scared that something will go wrong at my ultrasound on Tuesday. As much as I am frightened about being a mom to 3 I am not wanting to lose this pregnancy. Odds are that things will be ok and I hope they are. I need to keep telling myself that.

Nathan has decided to take Morgan on his trip to Cabo San Lucas. I am pretty excited about that since I get to take Maya to San Antonio by myself and just hang out with my family. Morgan is THRILLED and can't wait to build sand castles with her daddy. I admit I am REALLY going to miss Morgan since I haven't been away from her for that long. She's my little buddy. I look at her these days and I can't believe how HUGE she is. She has such a wonderfully compassionate soul.

A new day

Today is beautiful! It's 80 degrees and the sun is shining. I am taking my kids to the park when Maya gets up from her nap.
I had my appointment with my new OB today. It was great! She is wonderful. I have an ultrasound on March 1st so we'll get to see our little "oopsie" and hopefully that will help me get used to the whole idea of 3 kiddos. I do feel so blessed, just overwhelmed with the two kids being so close in age. They'll be 21 months apart. Amazing. Maya. A big sister. I'm feeling pretty typically pregnant.. some nausea, tired, and some soreness. I find it amazing that i am one of "those" people who get a miracle baby.. a surprise. I still wake up in the morning in disbelief. The Doctor says I am probably almost 7 weeks along. I am looking forward to that sono. Nathan came with me today and watched the kids while I had my exam and talked to the doctor. He was awesome. It went on for quite some time and he did not complain ONCE. I think he feels responsible for this :) but I do appreciate how much he loves his family and how much of a priority it is for him. Who would have thought you could find someone so priceless, on the INTERNET even?

Morning Sickness and More

This morning Nathan got up with Maya and let me sleep a little (in our new bedding from linens n things.. wow.. like the heavenly bed in the Omni hotels.. never had bedding this nice) He's back in bed and I got up because i was feeling a little woozy. uh oh.. gotta cut this short.. Maya's up from her nap. I'll be back.

Joining the crowd..

I've always been a little bit of a crowd follower. I'm going to take a stab at blogging. Today was a good day. My sister Sarah was here for the day and she's left for home now. I get nervous when she drives home late at night. She spent some one on one time with Morgan today and she really enjoyed herself. Morgan is definitely a horse of a different color. She is unreal with waking up in the morning. We put a clock in her room and told her not to come out until after 6:00. Every morning, with out fail... 6:01. Unreal. She is almost always tired. We're considering leaving her alarm clock when daylight savings time comes but the little smarty pants knows the early morning TV schedule. She's becoming a soccer addict much to her daddy's excitement. Here's the newest picture of the two of them.

She is a clone, isn't she!?
Maya's growing so fast but she's still such a little munchkin. She doesn't seem like she is going to be big enough to be a big sister. I bit the bullet and made an appointment with a new OB on Monday since my other one wouldn't fit me in until the middle of March. My friend Holly went to this one and says she is amazing. I hope so. Here's my newest picture of Maya.

What a miracle. That little being grew inside me...

Ok enough for tonight. I'm off to drink some sparkling grape juice with Nathan and sleep on the new bedding we bought today. We had a spendy day :)